· The day after tomorrow, I am flying to Virginia to see some of my best friends. I haven’t been this excited about anything in a long, long time. I’m actually so excited about it that I can’t coherently string my thoughts together. Therefore, today’s post will not only be in bullet form, but it probably won’t make too much sense, either. For this, I apologize.
· This morning on my way to work, I turned left at a red light. A middle-aged man with a receding hairline and Bluetooth honked at me and flicked me off. I guess I kind of deserved it. It really seems as if my driving skills are deteriorating as I get older. If I’m already struggling this badly now and I’m still a few years shy of thirty, I don’t like to think about how bad it will be when I reach old age.
· My attempt to stop chewing my fingernails has actually been quite successful. My nails are longer than they have ever been, and I have developed the incredibly annoying habit of drumming them on whatever hard surface is available. Also, I have made myself bleed more than once because I forget that they are there. Yeah. I’m learning.
· I am freezing. I decided that it was a wise idea to wear a pair of my Toms with no socks today. In retrospect, it wasn’t that great of a decision. It’s rainy and nasty, my feet are cold, and I just got over a double ear infection. Who wants to come to my house every morning and help me pick out weather appropriate clothing?
· Oh! I also need someone to come to my house tonight and help me pack for Virginia. And do laundry for me so that I actually will have clean clothing to pack.
· I went and got my hair did yesterday. I once again have pink and purple tips. Thanks, Becca!
· Yesterday, I finally got a copy of my final divorce decree. It was a super odd feeling, to say the least. Surprisingly, I wasn’t sad. I think I am finished being sad about the whole situation. It is a part of my life that I can’t take back. And even now, knowing everything I know and being hurt the way I was hurt, I don’t really think I would want to take it back. I’m stronger. I’m definitely wiser. I know that from here on out, I will trust my gut. I know that if all signs point toward something, no matter how badly I don’t want to believe it, the signs probably aren’t lying. From the very beginning of this whole mess, I have known that there was no way that I could walk away from this situation unchanged. But I have also known that I have a choice in how, exactly, I let it change me. I can let it ruin me, or I can grow from the experience and let it make me even more awesome. I choose the latter. Duh.
· Did I mention that I can’t wait to be in Virginia on Thursday? Seriously. I’m not sure that I will be able to sleep until I am there. These girls are my heart, and I never feel more like me than when I am with them.
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